reflections

i have a confession 🥀 …

April 7, 2026•2 min read

i am motivated by hate and i hate to admit that,

i hate how we have decided that humanity’s brightest minds will spend their life contributing to the most destructive technologies

i hate how technology have turned us into mindless zombies trapped into endless feeds of mindless consumption

i hate how...

i hate how much i and many others from the so-called ‘third-world countries’ have to work twice as hard just to be half as good

i hate how so much of my success is attributed to being so freaking lucky

i hate how meritocracy assumes that merit can emerge in a vacuum

i hate how much we reward the “loudest” pseudo-intellectuals and not the brightest

i hate the imposter syndrome therapeutic complex and how it’s based on the assumption that the feeling of an imposter is always wrong

i hate how…

i hate how the world has changed a lot over the past centuries yet the way we learn about the world hasn’t changed much

i hate how there's so many things “worth” hating yet i only selectively hate a few that directly affect me

i hate how i say “i” more often than i should

but despite all, i am grateful because the hate in me haven’t eroded my passion to solve problems…

because like Morty’s Rick, i invent, transform, create and destroy for a living...

and when we don’t like something about the world, we should try to change it